This week marked five weeks of quarantine. if you are reading this and for some reason are not aware of Spring 2020 in the United States and the WORLD we have been forced to endure a pandemic of biblical proportions. It's infected, disrupted and killed too many to rationally conceive. It has been overwhelming, to say the least, and has stopped or better yet arrested life as we know it. COVID-19 also known as Coronavirus has changed my life, and everyone elses for that matter.

Only six weeks ago I was commuting 25 miles each way to work dropping our daughter off at school in Uptown and going on my merry way being a productive citizen of these here United States, happily. I would complain from time to time regarding the time I spent in the car and wanting a break or some relief. We all know when God answers prayer he goes BIG, certainly COVID-19 was no answer to any prayers of mine but suddenly after taking a day off from work on PTO, I was not to return. I’d found out someone in a building adjacent to my own was taken to the hospital and being tested for Coronavirus. Our building that day was evacuated fortunately I was not there and the next day we were offered to work from home, which I did. That week marked now five weeks since I worked at my desk and in that building.

Our daughter went to school the remainder of the week uneventfully however we were called over the weekend in what turned out to be a no return to school order until May 15th. The no scorer was followed by the Shelter in Place from the local and state government with my office closing indefinitely and life suddenly changing.

My husband who is deemed "essential worker" has maintained his job working his normal hours while I am home living out my fantasy (or do I thought) to homeschool and be a housewife. I worry (a healthy amount) for his safe return home daily Coronavirus FREE. I miss our old life.

I do miss that long drive, now. The long drive is where I started vlogging. I got tired or maybe it was that I ran out of podcasts and decided to react on a video I'd seen. I had no one to discuss it with and was toying with vlogging and started talking about that video into my phone and hoped to have some conversation around it, over 700 videos later I vlog and now write (a little). While even writing this I hear myself narrating a story like Sarah Jessica Parker did in Sex and the City. I am thrilled "that long drive" helped me develop a skill I didn't know I had. I miss dropping Farah off at school and I miss seeing all of the familiar faces at the stores I frequent. I miss my old life.

Since I have been at home I have vlogged less although I thought I would vlog more. My environment certainly inspired me and my tight schedule often gave me the jolt of "get it done", I have settled into a slower, graceful schedule, with time to do as I please but always runs out very quickly. I have started cooking more and homemaking. Stocking my pantry and planning dinner menus. I feel like I am channeling my mother who was a great wife, homemaker, mother, and Registered Nurse. This is a moment where I feel a pivot and maybe a career change, an opportunity to create video content, discuss topics I enjoy and spend quality time with my family. All of this brings me great joy, I am living my best life at the worst time in our countries history. Hundreds of thousands of people have died globally, we are headed for a recession, record unemployment, businesses closing, standing on lines to get into Walmart, grocery shelves empty, no hand sanitizer and no sitting in restaurants. As an American woman, Corona has made us all very vulnerable and leveled the playing field there is no VIP or Sprrd pass to bypass this one.

What now? The new normal. I have accepted the things I can not change and have decided to see the good. I have time, time to write this blog! My first blog post in maybe two months. I will get better I promise, as long as you come back. I need to know someone out there is reading or finds my content interesting or sparks inspiration. Through it all, I feel freer than ever before although I long for the day I can sit in a restaurant and drink a very cold Rosé, try on a very nice pair of shoes,date night with my husband, family outting and spray perfume in the department store.

Today I am working - YES!! Working for me, writing, vlogging, and planning. When I am done I will make some coffee, cook breakfast, kiss my husband and my daughter, love on my dog Lil Mama and get my office pulled together, etc.

We are here making LEMONADE the Beyonce way holding on to big hopes and dreams, good health and looking forward to continued prosperity and life back to the way it once was that we all miss.

Inspite of it all, everyday I AM LIVING MY BEST LIFE, making Lemonade.